normal kathryn

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a twenty-five year-old english major living in atlanta who is in love with language, peppermints, and ben.

and as my counselor assures me, i'm positively normal.

on a party

ben and i are throwing a big stock-the-bar / dance party on friday. we’re going to have a keg, bottles of wine, balloons, streamers, and a friend dj our brains out. i am mostly really excited. truth be told, i’ve been looking forward to this party for months and months. it was always kind of a goal of ours with moving out of the apartment- we’d move into a house for several reasons, one of them being that we could finally have big, loud, fun get-togethers. and now it’s happening! once it’s here i’m sure i’ll be found having a blast but as of right now i admittedly dislike the nerves that precede hosting things.

eeps,
normal kathryn

— 12 hours ago with 2 notes
#my writing  #txtp  #party 

armadillo:

when your friends do something cool without youimage

(Source: bastille, via fake-mermaid)

— 16 hours ago with 295712 notes
#LOL  #true 
on working through it

i’m no stranger to feeling heavy for specific individuals, or even the world at large. it’s been happening for years. as recently as late winter of this past year i struggled immensely with what to do with awareness of poverty in the world, specifically in light of how much we have here in america (most of us, even lower class people have a home, car, food, water, clothes, etc). my feelings of sadness for those who are without were always gnawing at me, keeping me restless and agitated. it was rare when i could put those thoughts aside and just enjoy the present moment or be thankful for what i have. i couldn’t help but feel irreverent- smiling while others elsewhere are struggling, thirsting, starving- how is that okay? how can i? that isn’t fair. in late winter, though, i found a way to make peace with much of my restlessness upon realizing that, based on my tax bracket, i am among those who have our hands tied with barely making ends meet. this was a huge relief to me. i think i previously used to feel that as someone who was afforded some basics i was solely responsible for the plight of anyone who had less than me, and while i continue to advocate an economic structure that is beneficial for all people (and not just the whitest or richest or male-est), i have come to let myself off the hook in many ways. it has been healthy for me. i am no longer crippled by existential guilt per being someone who has a bed to sleep in. my guilt wasn’t helping anybody anyways; letting go of it has afforded me the freedom to explore ways in which i can be a voice for equality while learning to live my life as an emotionally healthy+compassionate person. this has been good.

but as the events in ferguson, missouri have unfolded i have been faced with a new burden clawing at my heart- racism. i hesitate to say “new” because it’s not like i’ve never known about racism- of course i’ve known. i’ve known it is absurdly still a thing in our country, i’ve even heard a handful of racist remarks come out of family members’ mouths. it is close. it is ugly. it is anything but new. but in a way, it is new to me in the sense that i have never before let myself fully feel the tragic weight of it all until a week ago. what happened to mike brown has caused me to feel it now, and i am stricken with sorrow, disgust, outrage… and shame for being counted among white people, since it is chiefly white people in america who perpetuate racism. i’ve been a restless mess all week on account of this. as opposed to the issue of poverty, the injustice of racism is a matter in which i cannot count myself among the oppressed. there is simply no way to relieve myself of a sense of responsibility. as someone who has white privilege i don’t know how not to feel guilty about the easier life i’ve been handed. i don’t have to fear. i don’t have to worry about picking up toy guns. i am never, to my knowledge, viewed as suspicious or threatening based merely on my unchangeable complexion. it is not fair and i don’t know how not to feel angry and sad about it. so i’m working through this, but i feel that i have very far to go before i find any semblance of peace.

i’m definitely open to your thoughts if you think sharing them would be helpful. can any of you relate? if so, i need need need to hear about it.

thank you for continuing to read along, you guys.

lovingly,
normal kathryn

— 1 day ago
#my writing  #write every day  #txtp  #racism  #mike brown  #ferguson  #white privilege  #police brutality  #compassion  #justice  #injustice  #thoughts  #oppression  #suffering  #inequality  #america 

mdthwomp:

Unfriendly reminder that in America it’s reasonable to say an unarmed black kid deserved to be shot six times because he might have robbed a convenience store, but a white kid shouldn’t be kicked off the high school football team just because he violently raped a girl.

(via buddhistbird)

— 1 day ago with 100404 notes
#important 
shantellmartin:

Studio visit with Marc & Marie. (Photo by Marc).

shantellmartin:

Studio visit with Marc & Marie. (Photo by Marc).

(via buddhistbird)

— 1 day ago with 657 notes
#art  #modern art  #black and white 

im-not-a-climbing-frame:

kristyjacobo:

Forever reblogging this.

And the fact that there’s more than one company means several people called makes it even better.

(Source: theclearlydope, via ssabrinee)

— 1 day ago with 1115082 notes
#AW  #pizza 
nice friend person:hey, how've you been?
me:capitalism is crushing me. i am barely surviving. i am full of toxic resentment. i want revenge.
— 1 day ago with 64954 notes
#nothing is more me  #LOL  #oh my god capitalism 
on ferguson

well, i’m still deeply upset by what’s happening in ferguson- the police brutality, treatment of the black residents as well as journalists, media’s skewed coverage, the fact that there’s a gofundme for the officer, and in general the deep-seated racism in our country. this whole thing is awful and outrageous and heartbreaking. i so badly wish i could take time off from work and fly out to ferguson to stand in solidarity. what i want more than anything is to be with those people if nothing else to let them know they are not alone in demanding justice and change. they are not alone.

signed,
normal kathryn

— 2 days ago with 2 notes
#my writing  #txtp  #ferguson  #mike brown  #justice 
Ferguson from my TL

karinaesmia:

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thewilsonblog:

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(From what I understand, the police thought they heard a gunshot and started throwing tear gas into the crowd. Correct me if I’m wrong)

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America the land of the free; if you are white and male. that is.

I am so seriously heart broken.
I can’t. I just can’t.

— 2 days ago with 72947 notes
#ferguson  #mike brown  #police  #important 

indieannajones:

Seriously, what the police are doing is not “bad”, it’s illegal.

There is a reason why people are raging mad at this situation, and it’s because it’s a blatant violation of basic human rights.

If you don’t understand that, then you are part of the problem.

(via msfrannyglass)

— 2 days ago with 51301 notes
#police  #very important  #ferguson  #mike brown 

dapenguinninja:

jnte:

Reality.

The Simpsons was dropping real knowledge


this rules so much

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— 2 days ago with 209419 notes
#police  #simpsons 
"Would you believe in what you believe in if you were the only one who believed it?"
Kanye West  (via asapkingsofparis)

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— 2 days ago with 113577 notes
#quote  #kanye 
on getting organized

i’ve probably been a little depressed lately but damn, getting organized today really did some wonders. snapped me right back. i made myself make a comprehensive to-do list, then cleaned a bunch, completed tasks, etc.

i feel like a new woman.

ohh yeah,
normal kathryn

— 3 days ago with 3 notes
#my writing  #txtp  #depressed  #depression  #bouncing back